Hello, sorry for the long hiatus. I've been meaning to post something since my last post but everytime I'm about to write something, somehow it'll end up on the draft instead. I am curently on my semester break, and next semester is one of the most important semester for my degree, it'll determine whether or not i'm going to extend for another semester, it's a 50-50 possibility.
Anyway, few weeks ago, waktu tunggu my flight balik rumah I got bored and I installed Tinder on my phone (Just for fun, dah delete dah). Within two hours of waiting I got a few matches and most of them are Malaysian currently studying abroad, coming home for summer break I guess. So, to cut story short I've become close with two guys from my matches. One is a 20 years old student who just started his degree and the other is a 26 years old who just finished his master and will start working with an Oil & Gas company in KL. Of course, we exchanged numbers. After a month of talking through WhatsApp, the 26 years old guy, let's call him Ali, asked me out on a date. It wasn't until then when I realized that the wall I've been building from my previous relationship is too high now I can't seem to let anyone enter anymore, too afraid that I'll get hurt again. The first cut is the deepest - and it's true, eventhough I have moved on I find it difficult to meet someone new. So, I told Ali I wanted to take things very slow, and that includes meeting face to face. I didn't know how upset he was until he said "At what point will you stop being so guarded?". I didn't reply him until this day.
But all in all, I actually feel content being single, having no expectation or obligation to anyone but myself and the answer to Ali's question? I don't know, only time will tell.